Day 1
Today was day one of my very first six week challenge. Yesterday we had to clear out our entire closet of all the carbs and sugars we owned. Here's what ours looked like:
Its 10:30pm and I'm already missing wine more than anything. That may say more about my alcoholism than my lack of willpower and discomfort going into this challenge.
This morning I had my first D3 workout. I was surprised to see that Francis was the instructor- a guy I haven't seen in 4 years who seemed to have a thing for me (which hasn't seemed to go away...). The workout began with sprints across a fairly short room, followed by high knees, butt kickers, grapevine, etc. Next we paired up and rowed for 200m each while our partners were either doing mountain climbers or jumping jacks. This was such a challenge for me. There were some very large women in this class who were doing far better than I was (I don't mean to say that larger people can't be fit... to be honest? It actually felt a bit inspirational to me. That they're fitter than me and continue to show up to this. That's pretty motivational). I really feel like I half-assed the whole workout this morning though. I used the excuse that I hiked yesterday and we focused on legs today. And now this sounds like another excuse, but a big part of it is my anxiety.
I'm having a really hard time getting past the workout related anxiety that I've always struggled with. I guess part of it is just pushing past, but knowing that it's going to be there every time I workout- thats paralyzing. Michiel said something today when I mentioned how it got really difficult about halfway through, I was thinking it was because of anxiety, but before I brought that up he mentioned "Oh yeah, that sugar-to-fats wall is the worst." When I asked about it further he said that usually the hardest part of a workout is when you've burnt all the sugars and it transfers to burning fats. Maybe I can use that the next time I start feeling anxious or like I'm going to black out.
After the workout I picked up Michiel and we went straight to Trader Joes, where we scoured the aisles for everything sugar free, carb free, meat free. Which was unsurprisingly difficult.
Our grocery list looked something like this:
Tofu
Mushrooms
Spinach
Mozzarella
Coconut Oil
Cauliflower
etc.
When we got back we stopped by our coffee stand and tried our first bit at sugar free coffee. We got blended coffee with heavy whipping cream, then went home where Michiel made me a spinach, mushroom, and mozzarella 2-egg omelette. I wolfed it down. He made cauliflower grits and baked mushrooms to be put in the fridge for later.
As a snack I had a cheese stick and a handful of peanuts.
Dinner was grits, and a whole Persian cucumber.
And that was it. Today was definitely calorie deficient. I think the total consumed was around 800. Obviously, this wasn't intentional, but holy shit. Trying to create a sugar-free carb-free diet while being vegetarian and still consuming enough calories is absolutely insane.
So now my calorie deficient body wants to chug down a few glasses of wine, and chocolate cake and popcorn. I don't even normally have these things (except for maybe the wine...).
Supposedly we'll start seeing results in 3 weeks. I really hope we do. This is already a bit difficult. Making tofu fries tomorrow which I've desperately missed since Zao's closed nearly a decade ago, so that's something to look forward too. I'll also be working with my mom and Michiel to figure out just what the hell to load my diet with so I consume enough calories and don't feel like dying.
Its 10:30pm and I'm already missing wine more than anything. That may say more about my alcoholism than my lack of willpower and discomfort going into this challenge.
This morning I had my first D3 workout. I was surprised to see that Francis was the instructor- a guy I haven't seen in 4 years who seemed to have a thing for me (which hasn't seemed to go away...). The workout began with sprints across a fairly short room, followed by high knees, butt kickers, grapevine, etc. Next we paired up and rowed for 200m each while our partners were either doing mountain climbers or jumping jacks. This was such a challenge for me. There were some very large women in this class who were doing far better than I was (I don't mean to say that larger people can't be fit... to be honest? It actually felt a bit inspirational to me. That they're fitter than me and continue to show up to this. That's pretty motivational). I really feel like I half-assed the whole workout this morning though. I used the excuse that I hiked yesterday and we focused on legs today. And now this sounds like another excuse, but a big part of it is my anxiety.
I'm having a really hard time getting past the workout related anxiety that I've always struggled with. I guess part of it is just pushing past, but knowing that it's going to be there every time I workout- thats paralyzing. Michiel said something today when I mentioned how it got really difficult about halfway through, I was thinking it was because of anxiety, but before I brought that up he mentioned "Oh yeah, that sugar-to-fats wall is the worst." When I asked about it further he said that usually the hardest part of a workout is when you've burnt all the sugars and it transfers to burning fats. Maybe I can use that the next time I start feeling anxious or like I'm going to black out.
After the workout I picked up Michiel and we went straight to Trader Joes, where we scoured the aisles for everything sugar free, carb free, meat free. Which was unsurprisingly difficult.
Our grocery list looked something like this:
Tofu
Mushrooms
Spinach
Mozzarella
Coconut Oil
Cauliflower
etc.
When we got back we stopped by our coffee stand and tried our first bit at sugar free coffee. We got blended coffee with heavy whipping cream, then went home where Michiel made me a spinach, mushroom, and mozzarella 2-egg omelette. I wolfed it down. He made cauliflower grits and baked mushrooms to be put in the fridge for later.
As a snack I had a cheese stick and a handful of peanuts.
Dinner was grits, and a whole Persian cucumber.
And that was it. Today was definitely calorie deficient. I think the total consumed was around 800. Obviously, this wasn't intentional, but holy shit. Trying to create a sugar-free carb-free diet while being vegetarian and still consuming enough calories is absolutely insane.
So now my calorie deficient body wants to chug down a few glasses of wine, and chocolate cake and popcorn. I don't even normally have these things (except for maybe the wine...).
Supposedly we'll start seeing results in 3 weeks. I really hope we do. This is already a bit difficult. Making tofu fries tomorrow which I've desperately missed since Zao's closed nearly a decade ago, so that's something to look forward too. I'll also be working with my mom and Michiel to figure out just what the hell to load my diet with so I consume enough calories and don't feel like dying.
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